We Got the FUNK: August 2011

Sunday, August 28, 2011

The baby talk...

So as I eluded in earlier posts, I have a little bit of baby fever starting.  I am very conflicted about this, but in all honesty, I would love a baby brother for Eyan.  At some point yesterday, maybe it was the pretty wedding, maybe it is the fact that Eyan is no longer an itty bitty baby or maybe it is the fact that SOOO many people we know are expecting but Jason decided that now he would like to consider having another child...Soon!

This information came as a huge surprise to me as I was pretty positive that Jason had no interest in having another baby for a little while.  We have a little "To Do" list before we want to have another baby and I kinda figured he wanted to accomplish everything on that list before we even had the baby talk.  What is this list?  Well it's pretty short, some things are stupid and where we plan on finding the cash, I have no clue, but here goes:
1. Finish the basement (make the upstairs office into new nursery and move office to finished basement)
2. Build a shed outside (more room in the garage for #3)
3. Get a motorcycle (we have one we are using, but it is stored at the parents)
4. Save $30,000.00 (you read that correctly)
5. Pay off my gas guzzling Tahoe

Well this whole conversation happened last night and part of today. I stopped taking the pill a few months ago.  Mainly because my prescription ran out and so much happened this summer, that getting to the doctor was not a huge priority.  We used other methods to prevent baby #2 for the last few months, but now it appears that my hubby would like to "pull the goalie."  Uhhhh, I have no idea how to react.  

My mind is going 1000 miles an hour.  How are we going to afford baby #2? What about my new job?  What about Eyan?  Preeclampsia? NICU? Finished basement?  Oh my God!

Jason tells me this "If it happens, it happens." So reassuring.  I asked all those questions that I just listed and about 30 more during the last 2 days of discussion.  He still stands by the, "if it happens" statement.  

So what do you do?  I want another baby, I want Eyan and his sibling to be pretty close in age, so why not?  At this point Jason doesn't want me to go back on the pill.  I really don't want to either (I hate those hormones)!  However, I think the timing is rough for us and waiting even a month or 2 might be a better idea.

So what did I do you ask?  In an effort to slightly detour the pregnancy chances I download an App on my phone called "Pregnancy Tracker."  It tracks your period and tells you when you should be ovulating.  Great App!  Let's hope this works, I could be completely naive in thinking it will and maybe in 12 weeks I will be announcing baby number 2, but right now, I have faith that I can slow the baby process down a bit.

Here's to wishful thinking!

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Following?

Hello Readers!

I was just checking the stats out on my blog and I was surprised to see that I have a lot of people reading my blog, but not following my blog.  In the 5 months I have been blogging over 1500 people have visited this site!  Holy Crap!  1500 people have read my thoughts and my crazy life!  If you are one of those, you should go over and quickly click the "Join this site" button on the sidebar!  Let me know that I am supported and you are not just driving by.

Thanks all and have a wonderful Sunday!

xoxo
Laura

Friday, August 19, 2011

Balancing Work & Family

If you haven't figured it out yet, I am a high school science teacher.  Which means that I have the summers off.  It is a wonderful break and the time I get to spend with Eyan is amazing.  As with all things, they must come to an end.  So here we sit, mid-August and I am back at work.  My new job is pretty good.  I am still very much a newbie and learning how everything works.  Today I met most of my students and they are very polite.  However, this week has been a whole different world for me.

I think all working mom's have to deal with the careful balance of work and family.  I would like to consider myself a pretty balanced mommy.  I truly believe that my new job will aid in my ability to keep work at work so that I can dedicate my home time to my family.  So this week Eyan spent a lot of time with my mom and Jen (Eyan's babysitter).  I always send a camera so that when he is being the extra special kid he is, they can capture it on camera.  Enjoy the view from a working mom!

Lunch!

This is how my mom dresses Eyan when I tell her not to let him play in the dirt in his clothes.

Butterfly Pavilion

Papa & Eyan at the Butterfly Pavilion

Jen, Ron & Eyan

Eyan found a girlfriend

So cute!

After a week of no family time, Mommy and Daddy took Eyan to get some Fish

He was SO excited!

He also got this vacuum to terrorize the dogs...best night ever!

I love the people that take care of Eyan.  My mom is incredible and she picks him up every morning.  Sometimes she keeps him for a few hours, sometimes she takes him directly to Jen's.  Jen is amazing.  She loves Eyan like her own.  He loves her just as much.  I couldn't be more blessed to have her take care of Eyan.  They make the balance of work and family so easy!



Sunday, August 14, 2011

On the Eve of my 27th Birthday

Howdy Ya'll!

So I sit here on the eve of my 27th birthday, with a WHOLE lot of change and a WHOLE lot on my mind.  First, I am one year closer to 30!  While for some 30 is a scary number, for me I am just very excited to see what my thirties bring...I have always felt like 30 really truly meant you were a "grown up," and although that might not be true, it is still a cool thought.  I LOVE my birthday, I used to have big parties and celebrate big.  About 5 years ago the birthday celebrations really slowed down and now, there is not really a celebration.  Some cake and food and maybe a card, but nothing special.  If you follow me on FB you would have seen my frustrations with my hubby this past weekend.  You see my hubby works graveyards and has to work on my birthday.  He was sucking at doing any minor celebration for me.  For his birthday I threw him a large surprise party and took him to Vegas, so I was somewhat expecting something cool.  Jason ended up getting a sitter (on his own!) and taking me to see a movie and dinner.  It was nice to have "adult time," but it was not super cool.  Oh well, maybe a big celebration for my 30th will be something I can look forward to.

So the second thing on my mind is the fact that I start my new job tomorrow.  I have done a few job related things, but tomorrow is the day I actually formally meet the entire staff and see the curiculum and I am nervous.  It's like 1st day of school nerves and excitement.  I have SO much to do, and I have no real classroom that is my very own, so that makes it difficult as well.  I have a lot of stuff and no where to actually place my stuff.  I purchased a little cart to tow my "classroom" around during the day, but it is going to be a huge change.  One that was necessary for my sanity, but still huge huge change.  ACHS was a great building with an incredible teaching/support staff and leaving all of that behind was a big decision, but a good one.

Another thing I have on my mind...BABIES.  Oh geeze do I want more kids.  Here is the problems with that:
1. Money: You cannot guarantee another boy, so therefore I would be purchasing a ton of stuff *if* we had a girl and that is on top of the baby necessities.  Plus Jason and I need to do some cutting back on other things if we really are serious about this baby business.
2. Selfishness: I actually kinda liked being pregnant, I liked the comfy clothes, I liked the treatment, I LOVED the feeling of the baby moving and the pre-birth bonding.  But I also think it is very selfish for me to want to have a baby just to be pregnant.  So until I can get to the point that I want not just the pregnancy, but the baby as well, I am not trying.  I will say that I think I am getting closer to the point where I want the baby, so maybe a few more months...
3. Basement:  Jason and I have to finish our basement before we have another child.  We have a 3 bedroom house.  Jason and I are in the master, Eyan is in his room and then there is the final room, which we use an an office and that gets used daily.  We would need to build an office downstairs before we have more kids.  I don't do unfinished anything, so putting my office in an unfinished basement with only 1 plug in for the ENTIRE basement, just doesn't work.
4. Preeclampsia:  Since I had this with Eyan and it was VERY bad, I have over an 85% chance of having it again.  My doctor has been very clear with the fact that I would most likely end up having the baby early and that he probably wouldn't let me go past 37 weeks.  With that, baby #2 would also probably end up in the NICU...the first time was not super fun, so I cannot imagine it being fun the 2nd time around either.
5. Work:  Although I have heard GREAT things about my new district being very supportive of parents, even having an in house daycare that a LARGE percentage of the staff uses and an awesome teacher retainment rate, I am still very weary.  I have to re-do my probationary period with this district...so we may just wait for another couple years before we even consider more children.  Who knows, maybe by that time we will decide not to even consider it.  Eyan gets easier and easier to care for everyday and new babies are a ton of work.  Welcomed work though!

That is enough complaining today...Happy Birthday to me!



Saturday, August 13, 2011

Y3W: Playing with Photobooth

My new school issues MacBooks to their teachers.  I am afraid of macs, but since I will be working on one all year, I thought I should spend some time learning some of the features and applications this computer has to offer.

So here I am writing my blog from a mac.  The internet portion is easy!  It took me a while to find the applications, and some of them are pretty cool.  Eyan loves this application called "Photobooth."  Check out some of the pictures we have taken!

X Ray!  A little scary

Comic Book

Andy Warhol
Just Normal
Have a great weekend!

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Where are you Mrs. Funk?

Good darn question...I have been soul searching, making life changes and trying to wrap my head around some rough realizations.  As some of my earlier readers may have caught prior to my "archival" of certain posts, I haven't been exactly thrilled with my place of employment.  I should state first and foremost that this distaste for my job was not due to any one person...if I had to blame my feelings on anyone, I should just fault the blame on myself.  I get caught up in work, I throw myself into my job and I am a worrier; all characteristics that can force a person to become "cynical" as two of my favorite people put it.  I worry about everything and play out every single scenario that could possibly happen before any normal person would.  That is my first problem and will come to play a little later in this post.

So what started this soul searching?

Well in short, a very close family friend (I lovingly call my aunt) passed away quite suddenly from breast/brain cancer in July.  I put her slide show together and had to use a projector from my school.  As I was driving up to the building, I began to literally panic.  I tried to stay cool as I had some company with me, but in all honesty, I was a wreck inside and wanted nothing more then to get out of that place.  Flash forward a couple days, as we were sitting at my aunts services.  I heard many people get up and give testament to what an amazing women she was and how she never really got a chance to enjoy her life because she was so worried and concerned about taking care of others.  That sentiment hit home hard.

In the following days, I began to filter emails from our union and district and boy were they setting a tone that was already making me cynical and grumpy.  One email in particular just sent me over the edge and I really started thinking that there was no way I could go back and work in that place, no matter how much I cared about my friends (co-workers who are some of the truest friends!) or my students.


What are these "life changes?"

From my manic worrying and anxiety, I began to search for new teaching positions, closer to home.  Being 45 minutes away from Eyan has always been something I struggled with, but I love the person who takes care of him SO much that I would never change that.  I found a few teaching positions within 15 minutes of my house and applied for all of them.  I managed to get interviews at 2 of the schools and scored in the top 2 for both.  The first interview went very well and I found out later that I got beat out by a former administrator that got ousted from his post in the very district I will be teaching in this upcoming year.  The second interview I personally thought went pretty bad.  I didn't feel like I represented myself and in a way I just wanted to be done with all the uncertainty and focus on going back to my co-workers and everything I had gotten used to in the last two years.  Much of the feelings of giving up the new job prospects, came from another email from our district appointing someone who I respect and admire and I KNOW will be an excellent leader as well as just leaving some of the most innovative, passionate and amazing teachers I have ever met!  But it was too late, I was all in.  To my surprise I received a call saying that I landed the position, instead of giving a definite "yes" I hammered the principal with about 10 questions.  I needed to know everything and I needed to make sure that I would be getting the support I needed to grow as a teacher.  So my life change is a new job, in a new district.  It is very scary and of course I am worrying about everything and extremely sad to be leaving all my friends in my former district, but I needed to do this.  I needed to be in a happier place mentally and I desperately needed to be closer to my baby boy.

Rough Realizations?

As I sit here worrying, I have to remind myself constantly that I have to do what is right for me and my family.  What are these rough realizations you ask?  Well here is a bullet pointed list:
  • People close to you will pass on, and when they exit this world your own life may come into perspective...don't be surprised when you feel the urge to make a change.
  • I made a conscious decision to leave what is comfortable to me and although I have considered turning back about 50 different times in the last week, there is no turning back now.
  • I am seriously going to miss my amazing friends...people say "we'll keep in touch" but we all know how that goes.  I am a forever-friend, I will text and chat and do my best to meet up with you, keep that in mind.
  • This next year is probably going to define me as a teacher.  My previous school taught me a ton, but I can't honestly say that I was shaped into some amazing teacher.  Some of my colleagues might disagree, but I have a lot of work to do and I am nervous.
So there it is, I am now entering a new chapter in my life...or maybe I am continuing the chapter just with a different voice.  Either way, life is changing...and all this worrying is doing nothing except keeping me up.  Pray for me...I think I am going to need it :)