School has been going for several months now. I can definitely say that I LOVE my job and I LOVE teaching again and at this point last year I didn't feel either of those. I am still very anxious and am always learning new things, but overall, it has been a great choice and change for myself and the family. ACHS was toxic for me. When I worked there I was someone that I didn't like and the negativity was consuming me and being brought into my home-life. The move to my new school has been eye-opening, supportive, challenging, wonderful and positive.
Before moving schools I had been operating under the assumption that ALL school districts were moving towards what ACHS was doing and that regardless of where I go, education is changing and I would be dealing with the same crap. It was eye-opening to see that is not the truth. ACHS is operating and doing the best they can, but the higher ups are not supporting the staff and really giving the kids a chance to be the rock-stars that I caught glimpses of when I worked there. Here I am reminded consistently what teaching is and that I am the professional and my opinion and expertise matters. No professional development on how to teach writing or analyze data, just adult conversations that center around positive changes that can help ALL students be successful. They treat you professionally, they recognize that you know what you are supposed to do and that you are above all HUMAN! I don't mean to bash ACHS. I loved my students, I loved my co-workers, I just am trying to make comparisons. I think honestly the biggest and best difference for me is that I am treated professionally and that they realize that I have a family.
Case in point...when I came down with that awful flu and then miscarried last week I had to take 3 days off of work, at the VERY last minute. I was so worried that I was going to get in huge trouble at work and that I was going to have this held against me. I came back Wednesday and didn't talk to too many people, then missed Thursday. Friday I was greeted with hugs from the admin and nothing but support and encouragement. It was a great feeling. They supported me not only professionally but personally and I am so encouraged to know that mistakes are ok and I am not screwing everything up.
Anyways, I love my job, I don't bring much of it home which means Jason and Eyan love my job and life seems to be coming together.