We Got the FUNK: March 2012

Thursday, March 29, 2012

Thursday Thoughts: Broken Spirit

Wow what a reflective and busy spring break I have had.  I only have 4 more days left and I am SO not ready to go back yet, but summer break is a few weeks away and I am lucky to have that time off every year!

So what's going on?

1.  I so should not have watched the 19 Kids & Counting episode about Michelle Duggers miscarriage.  I cried and it just upset me because I understand how she felt.  In an odd sort of way I agreed with all of her religious feelings when typically I think that is where they are a bit overboard.  Boy do I feel for her and geeze the type of emotions and depression it drug up.  Stupid me watching TV.

2.  We are about to lose yet another amazing person in Jason's family.  CAN WE GET A BREAK FROM DEATH?!?!?!?!  Uncle Bobby is within weeks of his passing from bone cancer and it is awful watching his family being torn apart and hurt yet again.  Grandma and Grandpa will bury 3 of their 6 children before them and you can see that is wearing on them.  I love his family so much and I just wish I could make this stop.  I wish I could hold Jason's cousin Shelli and fix uncle Bobby and bring back everyone to complete us all again.  I just don't get all this death.

3. If one more person complains about being pregnant in front of me I might lose it.  Maybe I should stop reading FB or maybe I should not listen to random people in stores complaining to their husbands about how uncomfortable they are in the baby isle of which I still have to shop for diapers because my monster is not feeling the potty training thing.  I wish I was uncomfortable, I wish I was fat and couldn't breath because that baby takes up all my room, I wish for more stretch marks and braxton hicks contractions and above all I wish for a healthy happy pregnancy and baby.

I am surrounded by pregnant people or newborn babies.  No that is literal, 3 of my neighbors in the houses literally surrounding mine have had a baby or are having a baby within a month.  I logged onto FB the other day and on my feed were FOUR pictures of babies born that day to friends of mine!  I am so JEALOUS and I am trying so hard to calm that green eyed monster.  It is weird because I am SO happy for everyone and their growing families, but at the same time I am so angry that I will not get that experience.  As of now it is looking unlikely that we will have more kids.  I have been waiting on test results to figure out why my body still is out of whack.  I was told I might need to go have a D&C anyway and that if they cannot fix it there will be no more children.  I am holding out hope but my frustration is high.

Those are my thoughts...what are yours?

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Monday, March 26, 2012

Sorry I have been MIA

We have been trying this

Friday, March 23, 2012

Crap...It's Spring Break

Yeah, I just said it...however, I don't mean it like that.  For the last 2 weeks my kids have been researching and completing HUGE genetics disorder projects.  They presented them yesterday and I started grading.  Shortly into this I realized that I would not have these done before spring break.  CRAP! I wanted to enjoy my spring break and I just need one more day, now I am going to take about 40 tri-fold posters home if I do not get them graded in the 1.5 hours during my plan hours!  NOOOOOO!

I feel like a slacker, even though I am clearly not.  Maybe I will wait until after break to grade some of them?  Ugh, I don't know but I am frustrated.

Regardless at 3:00 my spring break starts and I am off for 9 days!  9 days with my ninja!  YAY!

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Thursday Thoughts...Almost 2

Saturday marked 23 months that I have been a busy little mommy.  My little man is one month away from the big "2" and with that comes a lot of business.

1. The big 2nd birthday bash!  Last year we had over 70 people at Eyans 1st birthday.  We are so thankful for the friends and family that we have and we just love that Eyan brings just as much joy to our lives as he does to others.  However, 70 people was a bit much...the partygoers agreed!  So this year I made about 6 different versions of guest lists.  1 included only family, 1 was only little kids, 1 was a mix of very close friends and family, 1 was a 2 party option (one for friends and one for family) and the last was just cake and ice cream with mommy and daddy.  After much consideration I am confident that we have settled on the 2 party option.  This option is the best because Jason and I have HUGE families that are very supportive and that we WANT to share our ninja with and when we combine family with our awesome friends and their children (Eyans friends) the party is still to large for our house.  On top of it the date that we originally settled on is not good for a couple of the key players in Eyan's life, my dad (Papa) and Jason (Daddy).  So this option works out to be the best!

2.  I don't know if I am ready for a big boy?  I can't stop it, but he is so damn cute and still my baby.  With the big boy title comes big boy underwear, big boy games (which means less mommy time), and big boy attitude.  My baby is growing up and mama is sad :(

3. Now more than ever I want another baby.  Probably because mine is getting independent and I miss those nights nursing and snuggling up with my little infant and also because I want Eyan to have a sibling!  Someone needs to turn off those hormones that are making my uterus put a "For Rent" sign out.  Lets be real here, we are probably another year to two years off from this happening.  I still am not healed from my miscarriage and my body is all sorts of messed up from that.  Who knows if it could even happen and I am sure that as the terrible 2's continue to get worse I am going to rethink this thought. 

Got any ideas on any of my thoughts?

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Wordless Wednesdays

Eyan LOVES to Vacuum!

Helping Daddy 
Eyan's Say Cheese Face

So Happy!

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Mommy Photos...LD Photography

So after my almost 20lb weight loss, the loss of my baby, 2011 the year from hell and the hubby's heart issues, a great friend of mine who happens to be an even more amazing photographer offered to pamper me with some amazing photos.

Lauren from LD Photography did an incredible job on a cold windy winter morning in Colorado.  She made me look and feel beautiful and I really needed that.  When I saw these pictures I felt like she really captured who I am and made me feel so comfortable.

She even made this look good ;)

So much fun!

My eyes look incredible!

My Favorite!

Love this one too!
If you are interested in getting family photos done, a mommy shot, newborn pics, senior pics or any other pictures, please contact Lauren.  You can get in touch with her through her website LD Photography or Facebook!

Monday, March 19, 2012

Sodastream Review

The hubby and I have been looking for ways to save money but maintain our level of comfort.  One of the things we have given up is soda...great for the figure, but one of the sweet delicious treats we both enjoy.

After about a week of withdraws, I needed to find a option for us that wouldn't break the bank but would be delicious and easy.  Then in walked Sodastream!

We were highly anticipating the arrival of this machine and when it arrived my husband literally pulled everything out of the box and had a great display set up for me when I got home from work.  We eagerly read the directions and each of us picked out a flavor to try.  The directions were so easy and we each had our particular flavor of soda made in less than 5 minutes!  Thats 2 liters of soda in 5 minutes!  This also means the clean up was so easy!

Jason has been getting a ton of use out of the machine and I have been fighting him over using the machine!  Jason works graveyards and two of the flavors that were sent to us were Green Tea Pomegranate Peach and Energy.  Jason has been taking these two flavors to work and is more energetic and alert at work.  He LOVES this machine and uses it daily. 

This is my FAVORITE flavor!

Things we LOVE about Sodastream:
-Easy to make
-Easy storage (plus it matches my kitchen!)
-Increases your daily water intake
-Much lower sugar levels than a soda (great for the diabetic in me!)
-Wide variety of flavors!
-The price of the flavors range from 4.99-9.99 and make about 5 liters of soda (super affordable!)
-Easy clean up

Sodastream is affordable and can be found at many of your local retailers such as Target, Bed Bath & Beyond, JC Penny & Kohl's.  If you want to get more information about Sodastream check out their website or follow them on Facebook and Twitter

Review Disclaimer: I received a product(s) free of charge for the purpose of this review. No other compensation was given. I was not asked to write a positive review. The opinions stated in this review are my own and may differ from yours.

Happy Birthday Hubby!

I love you!  

Hope your 31st is as awesome as the first 30 :)

Our 1st trip to Vegas for your dirrty 30 last year!  

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Slow Cooker Sunday Pt 2

Here we are again!

Today's slow cooker recipe comes from that very addictive site some of you may have heard of...Pinterest!

After I made my plate I totally realized that I forgot the veggies...which is not typical of me since I LOVE VEGGIES!  But nonetheless it was delicious.  So what was it you ask???

Whole roasted chicken and loaded mashed potatoes.

I got the recipe for the crock pot chicken here at Budget Savvy Diva and it was delicious!  The chicken was moist, with a little spice!  YUMMY!

I have 3 different crock pots, a huge one that we don't use because I broke the latch on the lid, a medium one that I got for FREE at Kohls during Christmas and a tiny one that is great for dips...and apparently loaded mashed potatoes!

Recipe for delicious loaded mashed potatoes:
5 medium potatoes 
1 1/2 cups of water
2 TBS of butter
1 TBS of garlic salt
1/2 a cup of ranch dip (lays works or make your own with sour cream and ranch packets)
1/2 cup of shredded cheese.

I cooked the potatoes, water, butter and garlic salt on high for about 4 hours then added the ranch and cheese about 15 minutes before I served it.

I can't say they are healthy, but they were AWESOME!

Happy Slow Cooker Sunday!

Saturday, March 17, 2012

St. Patrick's Day Top 5 Laughs!

I missed last week so I've got some catching up to do!  I am linking up again with my favorite BlogHop!  "Hop" on over if you want to link up too!

Here Goes!

1. I have been debating a good time to take Eyan to the actual movie theater.  I decided that we should first try out a movie at home and see if he could sit for that long.  So we watched "UP" last night and my kid loved it...except the part at the end where the bad guy shoots the balloons and then later the house floats away.  He cried for those balloons!  I just loved it...silly ninja!

2. My 8th hour upperclassmen Chemistry class is getting a little wild.  So after trying for a good 10 minutes to have a little silence when I am trying to explain reaction types, I finally sat down and began flipping through the PowerPoint without talking.  The class became silent, so then I asked, "Why is it when I stop talking so do you, but when I start talking, so do you?"  After a good 5 minutes more in silence, one kid says, "It's because we are so dumb we think you can't hear us since you are so loud."  I just looked at him and laughed...I am the teacher they can hear all the way down the hall. 

3. I believe that we have created a monster.  When Eyan was 8 weeks old we went on our annual 4-wheeling and camping trip, a year later (14 months) we went again.  We took him on the 4-wheelers at 14 months through the trails and he was so relaxed, he fell asleep strapped to my dad on those easy trails.  So when we went to Bass Pro Shops and saw the adorable camo Power Wheels 4-Wheeler, we just had to buy it for Christmas.  Since then, Eyan has been OBSESSED with riding the 4-wheeler.  He says it so cute too, i'll have to get a video.  Well when I came home on Thursday, Eyan and I pulled into the garage and his daddies 4-wheeler was right there so Eyan looked at me and said "ride it 4-whhheela today? peas?"  So off all 3 of us went through our nice little neighborhood, all white trashy like riding that 4-wheeler.  Some of the neighborhood folks gave us some pretty awesome looks as Eyan was smashed between me and Jason but he was just loving it!  He told his daddy "be careful, Go faster!"  We might need to clear up what be careful means!  

4. We were driving earlier this week and the song, "I'm Sexy and I Know It," came on.  Eyan started to bust a move as best he could in his car seat!  His little arms were going crazy!

5.  The weather has been so beautiful here in Colorado!  Spring has ALMOST sprung!  We bought a smaller umbrella stroller that has storage and is a lot more comfortable for Eyan than the crappy $15.00 one we had been using.  So we have been taking walks after dinner.  Jason decided that taking the dogs is a great idea.  I don't mind because I have the baby so its not me getting drug up and down the street.  My dogs are both about 60+lbs and extremely muscular.  Jason has to wrap their leashes around his wrists so tight and lean back to about a 45 degree angle to get some leverage on them!  It looks hysterical...by the time we have walked and they have pulled Jason for about a mile the dogs do relax a bit but my goodness they are some strong little monsters! 

Friday, March 16, 2012

I wasn't going to post

But here I am!

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Thursday, March 15, 2012

Colorado Railroad Museum

On a blustery cold day in March, I had a brilliant idea to drive almost an hour out of the way to go to the railroad museum...because it was a free day.

So off Jason, myself, Eyan, my mom, my sister & her step-daughter went to see some old trains.

Eyan and my mom looking at the model trains

Eyan and I at the big engine!  

Inside one of the old cars...the ladder to get up here was a little scary

Riding on the old train

Family picture on the train ride...ehh not so great
The museum was nice, but we were all definitely glad that it was free because there was not much excitement except for the train ride and the model trains.   

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Wordless Wednesdays

Who Me?

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Happy Birthday Dad!

My daddy is 47 today!  
Yeah I know he is young so is my mom...I was an accident, but a darn good one according to them!

Tonight my mom, sister and I will be cooking crab legs, steak & asparagus to celebrate my daddy's birthday!

Monday, March 12, 2012

TAG! 11 Questions...about me!

So a great bloggy friend over at The Mommyhood Chronicles has tagged me in a fun little quiz.  The basics of it are that she has came up with 11 questions for me to answer and then I need to tag a couple other bloggy friends and come up with 11 questions for them to answer!

Here are my 11 questions to answer:

1. What is your favorite all time movie and television show? 
Oh I am in LOVE with Grey's Anatomy.  Give me McDreamy, McSteamy and any other Mc's with some crazy chicks that remind me of myself and I am hooked!  

2. What is your favorite season?
I live in Colorado...every season is my favorite...because we can get them at any point ;)  I love the summer because I have time off with my family and you just can't beat a fresh garden, green grass, and BBQing.  I love the Fall because its just warm enough to still wear flip flops but just brisk enough to really anticipate the winter.  I love the colors and when the aspens change it just puts me in awe every time.  I love the winter...I absolutely cannot wait for the first day of snow!  There is something peaceful about a city covered in snow.  I love the spring...fresh rain in the mountains is phenomenal!  I just can't pick one!

3. Coffee or tea?
Neither...I do not like caffeine, I enjoy and ice cold glass of water or apple juice. 

4. When did you start your blog and what is the focus of your blog?
Started my blog last April because I enjoy writing and at the time I just needed an outlet for all the thoughts running through my head.  I am the focus...and of course my ninja baby!

5. How did you come up with your kids names?
I was never one of those women who had my kids names picked out.  Even know I really have no clue what to name another kid.  Jason's mom died about 10 days before we found out we were pregnant with Eyan.  I could swear that she came to me in a dream and told me to name him Ian.  I wanted to put a "y" in his name because at one point Cheryl (Jason's mom) told me she had wanted to put a "y" in Jason's name but his dad wouldn't let her.  So to honor her I put a "y," but Iyan looked weird so then I put an E and it looked perfect and felt that way too!  His middle name is my dad's first name.  My dad always wanted boys and was elated when he found out we were having a boy so we honored him with that!

6. What is your favorite holiday?
By far Christmas!  I love family, food, and watching people be happy.  The lights are still magical and now with Eyan this holiday has taken on a new meaning!  

7. What was your favorite subject in school?
I don't remember ever having one.  I had favorite teachers, but school was easy.  I can tell you I HATED SCIENCE!  Go figure...I would end up LOVING it and teaching it to a new generation.  I think this is why I do my best to make my class the most fun, interesting and exciting class ever!

8. What is your favorite book?
Anything written by Dan Brown (wrote Angels & Demons and The DaVinci Code).  I love his style of writing and the mystery and history in his books. 
9. Cutest thing your kids has ever said or done?
I cannot pick one because I feel like everything he does is cute, but he has fallen on his booty a couple times pretty hard and then comes over and tells me to "Kiss it butt!"  I always laugh!

10. Are you a morning or night person?
Probably more of a night person, but with an early riser that controls my sleeping habits the mornings are becoming more appealing. 

11. Are you a SAHM, full time working mom, or part time working mom?
Full time working mom!  High School Science Teacher and I LOVE IT!

Now to tag a couple of my favorite bloggy friends! Of course, Censie over at Building Our Story,  Lacy over at Little Miss Nerd Girl and Sarah over at Nurse Loves Farmer.   

11 Questions for you lovelies!

1. What is the easiest recipe you make for your family?
2. What is your favorite dessert?
3. Which is better; Mani or Pedi?
4. Dog or Cat person?
5. How do you keep the spark alive in your relationship?
6. What is your favorite activity to do with your kid(s)?
7. What is most appealing to you about blogging?
8. Favorite reality TV show?
9. Dream job?
10. Favorite store to show for Jeans at?
11. iphone or android?

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Slow Cooker Sunday pt. 1

So for the last five weeks I have been celebrating my weekend with slow cooker Sunday! I have done this for several reasons.

1. Easy to make, easy to clean later.
2. Allows me to go do a lot during the day and arrive at home with dinner ready!
3. It's fun to try new food!

So what's for dinner tonight???
BBQ beef sandwiches with a salad, and maybe some baked beans!

I am going to try to post about slow cooker Sunday each week...if you have any excellent crock pot recipes, post them below in my comments section.


Friday, March 9, 2012

Head Under Water...

...and you tell me to breath easy for a while.  The breathing gets harder even I know that. 

Seems kind of appropriate for me and my emotions lately.  Its been 6 weeks since I officially lost the baby.  I have been able to distract myself with work, Eyan, cooking, cleaning, Facebook, Pinterest and of course this blog.  But...about a week ago I decided it was time to address some of the underlying issues that come from the loss of a baby and I made an appointment with my doctor.  The appointment was yesterday and I left there feeling just a crappy as when I got there.

I am still having my period...yes still, and I wanted to address that, my crazy emotions, and see about the genetic testing.  Apparently it is normal to continue to have your period for up to 3 months, but my doctor was concerned and ordered a test of all my crazy ass hormones.  She was quick to tune into my frazzled, emotional state and kept asking if I was ok, if I needed anything, and offered some antidepressants. I DO NOT like taking medication and quickly pushed those back...people are meant to feel emotions, not numb them.  I can't heal if I don't feel...so the anger, sadness, and emptiness continues.  She asked me if I thought it was necessary to start back on the pill...and there I was...stuck...with a decision.  I went there fully ready to go back on the dreaded pill (I HATE the hormones!).  Then I said simply "nope."  She asked if I said that because I wanted another baby or because I thought I couldn't get pregnant very easily so it wasn't necessary.  I kind of just went with the later...because I kinda believe it.  I've been pregnant 3 times and although two of those times were very easy, I lost both of those pregnancies.  The one and only "successful" pregnancy I have had was Eyan and it took close to a year to get pregnant with him.  So in a odd sense I do feel like it is hard for me to get pregnant...and carry it successfully.  I wouldn't call my pregnancy with Eyan easy with the onset of Pre-eclampsia happening in February and my stubborn rear holding out to deliver until April.  Those last 2 months were horrendous. 

Anyway, the last part of the appointment, I inquired about some genetic testing that I was told needed to be ran before we decided/accidently got pregnant again.  I sat in the office for over an hour and a half waiting to get my blood drawn, only to find out I had to go to an actual lab to get the work done.  What a bust!  I left feeling like I nothing got accomplished and that this damn miscarriage business was still, never-ending. 

In addition to all this crap I have been trying to also distract myself with other insignificant dreams.  Like my husbands job, medical bills, a finished basement, a debt free life, going back to school for my masters, putting Jason into the police academy, buying a motorcycle, going on extravagant vacations and any other hopes and dreams I can imagine.  This only makes me just a little more depressed.  Two years ago, Jason and I could have afforded all of this and still had our precious baby boy!  Where did that money go...the answer...my fat rear end.  We were eating out like crazy and we happen to have some pretty expensive tastes.  Ok not all the money went there, we also made some very smart investment decisions, so I guess this part shouldn't really depress me.

So today as I was sitting down to write this post, Sara Bareilles came on my ipod and the first line of her song spoke to me...it is only going to get harder before it gets easier.  So I have to trust in God and believe that things will fall in place, the tests will come back good (when I go get them done), some of my hopes and dreams will come true, and life will calm down for a little while.

On the upside my official weight loss from the doctor is 17lbs!!!  I guess depression looks decent on me.

Thursday, March 8, 2012


I just realized that this week marked 3 years since Jason and went on our "late" honeymoon.  For many reasons we had to postpone the honeymoon until about 10 months after our wedding.  But when we did go we spent 10 glorious, exhausting, romantic, fun, wonderful days in Florida.  We did 10 theme parks in 10 days and were in the parks from open to close.  It was insane, but worth it!  In case you are wondering which parks we went to, here is a run down:

Epcot, Magic Kingdom, Animal Kingdom, Hollywood Studios, Universal Studios, Islands of Adventure, Sea World, Discovery Cove, Aquatica (Sea Worlds water park) & Busch Gardens.

In addition to all of the theme parks, we enjoyed Cirque De Solei's La Nouba and Downtown Disney, The Blue Man Group, A great luau, a trip to the ocean, the launching of the space shuttle and some serious food!

Here are just a couple pictures of our amazing adventure:

Character Breakfast!

Riding a ride in magic kingdom

Yeah..I am totally that strong (Hollywood Studios)

Sheikra...Scariest rollercoaster ever!  Youtube it!

Blue man group!  We had front row seats and the show was amazing!

By far one of the coolest experiences we have ever had.  

Universal Studios: Islands of Adventure 

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Wordless Wednesday

Thank you Mrs. Funk! 

Thank you notes from 55 of my students!  *tears*

Tuesday, March 6, 2012


So the other night as I was skimming through Pinterest, I saw this little funny: 

Now there are a couple things you should know about me regarding this:

1. I freak out about the world ending and not getting to see Eyan grow up or even worse being separated from him during the event and not holding him and comforting him as it happens.  Yes, morbid I know, but again, I freak out.

2.  I am completely aware that my irrational fears of the worlds end are just that, irrational.

So with both of those stated, this little funny gave me some calm and rationalized my fears a bit for me. It made sense to me that since we operate on a roman calendar with leap years that the 2012 projected date from the Mayans would not work.  

Todays topic for Toddle Along Tuesday is something you hope your baby gets (or doesn't get) from you.  This irrational fear junk is definitely something I hope Eyan doesn't get.  

Monday, March 5, 2012

I have got to stop

Eating....candy that is.

At work we have a cabinet drawer full of candy.  Today I ate 7 pieces.  If I don't stop those 20lbs I just lost are going to attach themselves to my rear.

I need help and ideas to curb the need to open that drawer and eat those darn delicious candies!

Thanks all!

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Y3W: Love these 2

My heart is happy

Saturday, March 3, 2012

Weekly laughs

Linking up one again for my favorite blog hops!

Here goes:

1. Eyan loves 4-wheelers! The hubby's 4-wheeler is parked in the garage next to where my Tahoe parks. Everyday when we get home Eyan says, "ride it 4-wheeler, vroom vroom!" So cute.

2. The cuss word of the week was Damn! He must have got in trouble for saying it so when I picked him up from Jen's he told me, "don't say that...damn, don't say that." Why do bad words sounds so cute out of their mouths. It takes everything I have not to laugh.

3. My kids do a warm up everyday when them come into class, which means they have a question of the day they need to answer. They have a sheet with 10 spaces for warm ups which they filled up on Tuesday, and I forgot to have them turn in. So Wednesday when they came in the warm up was, "write your name on the sheet and turn it in." One of my straight A students comes in starts becoming very concerned because there was no place to write the warm up and she didn't want to miss out on any points. I tried to explain several times that all she needed to do was write her name on the paper and turn it in. She kept saying, there is no spaces left. Finally one of the other students takes her paper, writes the girls name on it and turns it in. The girl started laughing hysterically because she felt so dumb...we all laughed with her.

4. Eyan saw me weighing myself, and fell in love with the scale. So the last couple days he has been grabbing the scale, getting on it , watching the arrow move then jumping off yelling "pounds!" Silly kiddo.

5. My sisters step daughter is four. Eyan has a little power wheel 4-wheeler. My husband asked Alyia (step daughter) if she wanted to have a turn and ride. Alyia responds, "no it's too fast I'm afraid of heights!" Talk about two irrational kid fears. I just giggled she stayed completely serious.

Friday, March 2, 2012


So today I am showing a movie in my Biology and Chemistry classes.  Biology is watching Gattaca and Chemistry is watching October Sky.  I am not used to watching movies.  At my old school this was extremely frowned upon and not allowed.  We could show SHORT EDUCATIONAL video clips and that was it.  So this is a bit of a treat.

Next week our students begin the TCAP which is our state testing program.  I will only see my students a total of 1.5 hours next week.  So naturally the rest of my colleagues are showing these videos, so I will too!  But I am SO BORED!  I am caught up on grading, and shoot the quiz that they are taking right now I will grade and return before the class is even over in 40 minutes.  I have nothing to do.  No lessons to plan for biology for a month (because we are literally that planned out, handouts and everything!), nothing to plan for chemistry either.  So what do I do?

I decided to blog.  I really have nothing to talk about, so here are a couple random thoughts.

1. My kid has been injury free for a whole day!  No seriously this is a miracle.
2. Neighbor Lady had Baby J and I am already in love!  He is adorable, just like her other 2!
3. I am currently watching a kid stuff all sorts of food wrappers into a rather large arrowhead water bottle...kind of interesting how much crap can fit in there.

That is...pretty crappy blogging today, sorry ya'll!

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Thoughtful Thursday

Oh I am full of thoughts and I just need to take a brain dump...that is, I need to empty out my brain.  So here is a random snapshot of what is going through my mind.

1.  My kid hates me?  These tantrums with the hitting, biting, spitting, mean words and head butting are just killing me.  I am trying to focus on the positive with him, but my GOD is this kid testing me.  I will make it through this.

2.  If I wake up one more morning with our damn yellow lab in my freaking $2000.00 bed I am going to lose it!  We made her a super nice dog bed out of memory foam and she ate it...stay the heck of my bed Lily!

3. I am so ready to know if I will be renewed at my new school or not.  We got an email that the budget will be cut again and I am damn nervous that means that I will not have a job...I have been comforted by my principal and her very positive evaluations, but still if there is no money, I have no job :(

4. I need spring break to come soon because I have some serious cleaning to do.  The deep cleaning MUST happen or I am going to lose it!

5.  The hubby and I need to invest more time in our relationship.  We finally had a date night on Saturday and it was great!  I am trying to figure out our summer/spring break vacations so we can focus more on our relationship.  It is so nice to be just us sometimes.

6.  If I have to continue to look at the pile of kid toys in my living room I think I might begin trashing them.  He loves his toys, but they just don't belong in our living room.  We probably have like one more year of it before the basement is fully finished and his playroom is ready.  UGH!!!!

7. The hubby wants to sell his truck to by an older truck with more miles, a motorcycle and pay off those damn medical bills!  I let the idea stir for a while and now I am totally all about this.  I hope the buyer comes through!!!

8.  I would like to know how much we are going to owe on our taxes and just get this out of the way.  Best Friend Stacey is my accountant and is super busy this time of year, she does our taxes on the side which is great, but I am impatient.  Ehhh this is minor, I just want to see if we get any money back.

9. I am afraid to gain back the 20 lbs I just lost from the depression and flu.  So scared that I am weighing myself daily and watching every little thing that goes into my mouth (probably a great thing to do!)  Except for today...today I ate FIVE yes FIVE mini candy bars (the little square ones), and made a cake and had a piece of that...oh crap...

10. My neighbor lady friend had her beautiful baby boy yesterday and I am just hoping that a little snuggle with him and talk with my friend will help offset my absolute obsession with having another baby so quickly.  My poor body needs to heal and I just need to find my happy place before I try and fix that portion of my heart by filling it with another baby.

I think thats it.